1. Name:
Xm... my real name you are not gonna get it out of me, it just doesn't work that way. Sorry - but i'm just not comfortable with it being out there. Today - i'm just a nobody to the outside world and i would like to stay that way for now.
2. Birthday, Age and Location:
No really, once upon a time, on the 04.08.1975, at 14:20 o' clock local time (yes i'm under the sign of Leon with horoscope Scorpion), to be exact, in a country far, far away (that dependes where you 're at, of course), a very very sweet and loveable baby (at least, that's what the baby thought), first came on this wild and cruel world.
3. Who Are You?:
I'm just another person.
4. Tell Us a Little More about You:
I'm always searching for something and always dreaming about something. I can't live in the present and i don't want to live in the past. For me there's only the future, but i'm afraid of it.
I miss things that don't belong to my world, such as romanticism, elegance and love. I hate every day being like another and i still don't do anything to it. I can have almost anything i desire. I can travel and i can have lunch in expensive restaurant, i can go to the theatres and i can buy 10 books per diem. - I'm always doing outrageous things with money... i waste money a lot... have probably never really saved in my life...
I really enjoy time by myself. for as far back as i can remember i've always enjoyed some peace and quite. That's not to say i don't enjoy the company of others - i just don't need it. I can't stand a man that he wants more and more... more love, more commitment, more control over me. Often i'm finding myself to try to pull away from circumstances i could never live with.
5. Adjective most often Used to Describe You:
"Cute", "Funny", you know the usual fun names. I suppose "Crazy" is used quite often, because sometimes i say such unpredictable things!
6. How Do You Feel about Life?:
Life used to be unpredictable at one time... and that was the charm of it... and now i feel that charm wearing off...
7. Are You Happy with Yourself?:
Most of the time... i try to be.
8. When Was the Last Time You Laughed For No Reason?:
I can't remember.
10. What Do You Like to Do?:
Ancient history, mythology, writing poetry and stories. Occult or unexplainable it has always fascinated me, in some way or the other. When i was younger it were things like the Bermuda Triangle and UFOs.
I love surfing through net, maintaining my site (damned hard job), playing or going out with my daughter Nephele, drawing (oil and pencil), photography (digital, black / white), collecting stamps - masques - old letters, pictures - books, sleeping ( i wish i could do this even more - i suffer from insomnia), wasting money on shopping, candlelight dinners, good food, waves, the night sky, rain at night, thunders, mountains and sea, playing computer games (adventure), Austria, Hungary, Czech, people who have enough guts to stand up for what they believe in.
11. What Do You Hate?:
Peak hour traffic, racism, hypocrisy, narrow - minded people, waiting, being sick, hip hop, dance floor, the sun -:) more than 25, working on Monday, Tuesday...
12. What about Reading (Books and Writers)?:
I read a lot when i'm not on the net, mostly anything dark in nature or adventures. Also i read biographies, historical, crime and classical literature.
Only few writers caught me, made me feel, made me think, first... J.R.Tolkien, the greatest writer of the 20th century. I read his "Lord Of The Rings" 3 times and it still mesmerises me... Second, Euh Omhrolh - a young greek writer, third... Patrick Ziskind, Ann Rice, Stephen King, Oscar Wilde, Edgar Allan Poe, Dostoevsky, Pablo Coehlo, Dan Brown...
13. Favorite Art Form?:
All my life i have been interested in arts. Theatre, writing poetry and stories - has always been for me the connection between the reality in my mind, the illusion of my life, and the journey between the two -, painting ( i use to do oil paintings, mostly portraits).
14. Music and Musicians?:
My first conscious choices led me to classical music, especially Beethoven, Bach, Carl Orff and anything dark and powerfull.
In the early '80 's i felt in love with the music of M. Jackson, Sting, Enigma, Metallica, Scorpions, Dire Straights, White Snake, Savage Garden...
Bands like Fields Of The Nephilim, Sisters Of Mercy, The Mission, Faith & The Muse, London After Midnight, and Nosferatu have opened my eyes to the dark world of goth. An interesting world which has offered me a lot since. I 'll never forget bands like Morbid Angel, Carcass and Cynic Thought.
Now i like most Evanence, Sarah Brightman, Vanessa Mae and Vangelis.
15. Favorite Movies?:
The Lord of the Rings (part I, II, III), The Crow, Casablanca, Gilda, Sliding Doors, Breaking the waves, Notting Hill, Bitter Moon, Rosemary's baby, The Shawshank Redemption: Rita Heiworth, The Rock, Toutsi, The Ninth Gate.
16. Favorite Colors?:
Black, white, dark purple.
17. Favorite Texture?:
Satin, Silk, Velvet.
18. You and Sports?:
I love swimming - diving, bicycling.
19. Favorite Tastes?:
Chocolate, salads, sweet wine.
20. Favorite Flowers?:
Blood red roses and wild orchids.
21. Favorite Perfume?:
J' adore, Poison Hypnotic.
22. Favorite Oxymoron?:
Mortal - Immortal.
23. What is Your Favorite Sin?:
Lust.
24. How Long is A Moment?:
It's relative. To the circumstances, state of mind and feelings involved.
25. What's Your Favorite Animal and What's Your Opinion about Animal's Rights?:
All! (Especially dogs and dolphins - my dog Ektor of course i adore him), except for those insects and bugs and creeps... *shiver*.
I've been part of animal's rights associations since when i was 7. I believe that taking care of animals makes us a bit more human. Just try, you 'll see what i mean.
26. Favorite Natural Scent?:
Rain, the sea.
27. Sunrise or Sunset? Why?:
Sunrise... early morning is really the most beautiful part of the time though most of us never appreciate it... and i love the silence and beauty of it...
28. Which Time of the Year Do You Prefer?:
Autumn.
29. Lullabies or Silence?:
Silence.
30. Favorite Sound?:
Water dripping on the mud on a perfect morning.
31. Full Moons or New Moons?:
Full moons. They look beautiful, complete, whole, something we all wanna be.
32. If You Could Touch God, what Would it Feel Like?:
Like nothing... or maybe some sort of benevolent heat...
33. Do You Believe in an Afterlife?:
Yes, but i'm not sure.
34. What Scares You?:
Heights, extended solitude, people, my self.
35. What Do You Feel about People?:
I love those i can connect with... the others i'm mostly indifferent to... though i can't stand brash people and people who wanna be something they 're not.
36. Are You Vulnerable to Anyone? Why?:
I'm vulnerable to people who i feel can threaten me in some unconscious way... or people i perhaps think superior to me in some way.
37. What Makes You Feel Twice?:
People's expressions.
38. What Is Your Most Prominent Emotion?:
Unhappyness.
39. To Be or Not to Be?:
Not to be, anything.
40. Define Bliss:
That state of mind when you feel you wouldn't rather be anywhere else.
41. Define Perfection:
Something that's exactly as you would have it... without feeling that it's short of anything...
42. Who Do You Admire?:
My father for his alarmingly high tolerance level.
43. Beauty Is?:
Not necessarily about perfection.
44. Define Obsessions?:
Having something mess up in your head until you take care of it.
45. Your Addiction(s)?:
My daughter, chocolate, drinks,cinema /theatre, music, writing.
46. Is Cynicism Used to Prevent Pain?:
No. It's something that grows in you when you 've felt too much pain.
47. Do You Associate Crying With Pain?:
Yes... with anything one can't bear or necessarily control.
48. Would You Rather Be Used by Someone You Love, or Be Involved with Someone You Only Like Partially?:
I' d rather be used... at least it's by someone you 'd be willing to give all to anyway... and with those people, it doesn't really feel like exploitation.
49. Would You Rather Hold or Be Held? Why?:
I would rather be held because nothing is more reassuring than feeling safe... and because i'm selfish.
50. Hurts More, Sticks and Stones or Words?:
Words.
51. Words or Pictures?:
Words... sometimes my imagination is so much greater and pictures are a disappointment.
52. Do You Believe Everyone Has A Perfect Match?:
Hardly anyone have.
53. Do You Look for Love Forever or for Now?:
Now... nothing is permanent.
54. Most Important Factors in a Relationship?:
Trust, respect and honesty.
55. Do You Feel that Love Needs to Be Proved?:
If it's for real it proves itself.
56. Lasts Longer: Love or Lust?:
Love. Lust is Fleeting.
57. Better to Have Loved and Lost Than to Have Never Loved At All?:
We don't feel the loss of things we never had in the first place.
58. Would You Rather Exist For Someone or Have Someone Exist For You?:
I would rather exist for me and live for no one and have no one live for me.
59. The Most Accurate Way to Find Out How Someone Feels about You Without Asking Is?:
The way he respond to you... and his eyes.
60. Kisses or Hugs?:
Hugs.
61. "I just want to be friends" : Sincere or Bullshit?:
Bullshit.
62. How Far Would You Go For a Friend?:
I would die gladly for a true friend. Fortunatelly, i don't have true friends!
63. Envy Is?:
Feeling that someone has something just as you would want it. Only you don't have it.
64. Better Introversion or Extroversion? Why?:
Introversion - you don't depend on people.
65. Is Contentment the Same As Satisfaction?:
Almost... i'm content when i'm satisfied with things.
66. Briliance is Defined By?:
Brains... sensitiveness... perception.
67. Innoncence Is a Virtue or a Burden?:
Virtue... it saves you from a lot of pain... but at times it can end up making people take you for a ride.
68. Life - Seems Better When it's Just Beggining or When it's Nearly Over?:
When it's just beginning... because you 're too simple and innocent to know or understand things that end up hurting you later.
69. If You Had to Choose, Would You Live Like There's No Tomorrow or Dream Like You 'll Live Forever? Why?:
I would live like there's no tomorrow. If i had the right mind set (which i'm working on) i would live as if i'm never going to see the sunlight again. I would live as if i couldn't be sure of tomorrow.
70. Have You Ever Felt "true" Freedom?:
I often have a dream: " i 'm a little girl and with my mother we use to go to the gulf of Mexico. I get a deep breath of air and then sink into the tides, letting them pull me back and forth... I think this approaches what freedom feel like.
71. Do You Have Any Plans For the Future?:
I prefer to live in the present (and maybe the past?) and leave the future to happen... plans rarely get realized anyway....
72. What Would You Like to Wish?:
Love, health, joy, happiness, luck to my daughter and me.
Peace and hapiness for all over the World.
Become an actor, artist or writer, win the lotto (jackpot) - (no work anymore), visit the United States, Japan... every corner of this world, open my own restaurant - club.
